My story.

There was a time in my life when I had reached many of my life goals. I had a beautiful family, two children, a wonderful partner and a dog. I had my own company working as a advertising photographer.We had a good income, lots of friends and family. A busy social life with friends and hobbies and outdoor activities. By most standards, it was a really good life.

From the outside, everything looked fine. But inside, I was struggling. There was some kind of a confusion, a feeling of emptiness I carried. I could not understand why I felt the way I did at the time. I should be really happy and fulfilled.
But I wasn’t.

I tried to be a good partner, a good father, and a hard worker. But with the stress of work and the responsibilities in life I felt overwhelmed, drained, and without any real direction. I could feel myself getting trapped somehow, feeling stuck. Everything I had achieved should ”by the book” make me a very happy man.
I hoped that with time eventually things would change, but it didn’t. I felt my energy was running low. I felt grey. Sometimes emotionally numb. I was stuck in a negative mental loop somehow.

My relationship ended, my family split up, and even though we handled it in a good way and respectfully, I carried guilt inside towards my partner and to my beautiful children.

I moved to my own apartment and kept up the same lifestyle: staying busy, going to parties, filling every moment with something to do. But whenever things got quiet and I was alone, anxiety creeped up on me.

Friends and family suggested I should see a therapist.
Even tho I respect and understand that therapy could help me find answers about myself, I didn’t go. It didn’t really resonate with something inside of me.

One day I came across podcast were they were talking psychedelics a the medicine Ayahuasca. I had never tried anything like this before. I thought anything accept alcohol was dangerous drugs and that I need to stay far away from it.

But this podcast made it interesting to me. I thought to myself why not have an experience like this, whats stopping me? You cannot know what it’s about until you have tried.
Everything I really appreciate and enjoy in life like music, art and movies are all in one way or another influenced by some kind of psychedelic substance. Even artist and some influencial people with different points of views do it. Lot’s of people that I admire are often in relationship with psychedelics. Maybe it could help me see things differently in my own life as well.

I went to a retreat for three nights with this medicin. What happened there I can hardly describe. It was both beautiful and painful, extremely intense in periods but also loving and healing for me.
What I understood about myself there was most importantly that it showed me my strengths, my wounds. Moments in my life where I had said “yes” when I should have said “no.” It helped me understand where I had lost my direction. But also that it’s not too late to start over and begin again. Afterwords I felt reborn in a way. A new person — same body, same world, but something within me had shifted. I felt reset.

I started meditating daily. Practicing breathwork. It took me into deep, peaceful states of mind everyday. I felt calm, relaxed and free. I noticed things in everyday life that I had not seen before. Small everyday things to be grateful for. Also, I began to really admire who I am and I started to like the person in the mirror again.

My focus in life is no longer just about work, eat, sleep, and repeat.

I feel a deeper sense of purpose. I feel most alive when I help others. That’s why I started This Moment — to help people who feel lost, disconnected, overwhelmed by life. Just like how I once did. I know that we all can start over and change the way we are, at any time. We just need to see what’s stopping us.
To create real change in peoples lives instead of numbing themselves with alcohol, drugs, anti-depressens, distractions, or unhealthy habits.

Today I live a far more grounded and peaceful life. I still work as a photographer (Picture Perfect) in a very busy and demanding environment. Nowadays I enjoy my work on another level. Dealing with stress and challenges very differently then before. As an artist, the voice of the inner critic has turned down the volume to a degree that I almost never hear it anymore. I just create with ease and joy. And I feel my work as an creative person has dramatically changed for the better.

Spirituality, energy work and the mystical side of life has also become a big parts of my life. And it’s a path that I will continue exploring even more.

My mission is to help others.

I know now that before my psychedelic journey I was running on autopilot — now I navigate life differently.
I’m here to offer what I’ve learned from experience. To share the tools that helped me to change.
Psychdelics journey’s in a safe and legal space, meditation and breathwork. And also give support in different ways of thinking about life, energy, the Universe and the process that we all are a part of.

I wish we all find peace, acceptance, love and understanding about ourselves and others. And the only way to find it,
as I see it is within our hearts.